My feel

sometimes, I such geeky girl... when I dont have any friends, have a party with other, goes to department store to shopping together..
I have friend, but I feel not! why? cz there're not understand all my feel, otherwise I cant see their heart. Why?
If I cant adpt with their? I dont know that. but my feeling said that. I want to have a real friend. who learn my stories. Not lying damn friends! aaaaaahhhh!
who can be my friend? pleaseeee come on! Im not wanna catch you guys..